I had intended to visit the 9/11 Memorial immediately after it opened; I’d made a reservation when they first became available in April for the 13th of September. Through slippery thumbing on my iPhone calendar, I mistakenly entered the visit for the 15th, which is my birthday. As the time approached, I kept asking myself why I’d wanted to go to the 9/11 Memorial on my birthday.
Of course, I hadn’t. But by the time I realized my error, the 13th had passed. The first opening I could get on the online reservation system was November 16th. I booked it, forgetting that I would be on an airplane returning from Egypt on the 16th.
I am aware that I have an overbooked existence, and that it’s my own fault; but I seem powerless to control myself — there’s so much to see and do in life, and I’m blessed with the means to take advantage of much of it. And as I always say to myself when I’m feeling a little ragged from too much activity — you can sleep when you’re dead.
When I realized my second error, days before I left for Egypt, I tried the reservation system again. Perhaps not so miraculously there were openings the afternoon of October 30th; maybe a bit too close to Halloween for most people — both things reflecting on death, but with polar attitudes. It was the day I was leaving for Egypt, but I had a late night flight. Had I thought more about the juxtaposition of visiting Ground Zero and getting on a plane to Egypt on the same day, I might not have gone to the Memorial. I’m not actually superstitious, but let’s face it – it is a bit creepy.
But I was rushing around — I was busy! –and I didn’t think about it. I booked my ticket for the visit. On the 3oth, I hopped on the Q train downtown to Rector Street and joined all the other tourists, which included families with small children, some of whom were actually in costume. You gotta love kids for that.
The first thing that’s striking, approaching the entrance to the Memorial from Albany Street, is the view of One World Trade Center, formerly known as the Freedom Tower. I’ve been tracking its progress on my walks along the Hudson River, but I hadn’t seen it from this angle, which presents a more complete view of it.
I’m not even sure I like this building, architecturally; I’m withholding judgement until its completed. But there is something about its simply being completed to which I have some attachment. It will feel like “completion” of the whole experience of 9/11 for me. I think I’ll be able to finally put it away.
The second striking thing is the realization of how much developers must have rushed to meet the deadline of having the Memorial ready for the 10th anniversary this year. There are degrees of “ready,” and this is at the very low end of the “ready” scale, as in “barely.”
To get to it, you are threaded through a massive construction site — multiple buildings in varying stages of construction, huge maws of foundational work to the complex itself that plumb the depths of Manhattan’s bedrock — it must be an operations and insurance nightmare to have people constantly in motion around the site.
The reflecting pools on the footprint of the Twin Towers are finished (although for some reason, the North Pool was off-limits when I was there.) The plaza around them is paved, and the rows of trees planted. The shell of the visitor center is built, but not open. I was unable to locate the paving stone I’d donated, although there is a system to help you do it that identifies individual trees within row numbers; but nothing is physically labelled yet.
There is an organization to the listing of the names of the victims. There are sections on the bronze parapets surrounding the waterfalls dedicated to each of the Towers, the three downed flights, the Pentagon, and the 1993 bombing. The sections are designated with raised letters; the names are stencil-cut all the way through the bronze.
The design is quite simple and quite elegant; and the impact is very powerful.
The water falls in an unbroken curtain around the four sides of the pools. In the center of the pool, it falls again into a concentric square void. I couldn’t see the bottom of the second void. It’s like looking down a dark wellshaft and not being able to see where it ends. It’s like a tunnel into the bowels of the earth. It’s the entrance to the Underworld. It creates a remarkably focused feeling of loss — terrifying, purifying and beautiful. The sound of the water falling away into nothingness is remarkable.
The display of the names is touching. People leave flowers or small American flags in the crevices of the letters and do rubbings of the names with small scrolls of paper and crayons. It was clear that whole families had made a pilgrimage to the site: one family member would ceremoniously make the rubbing as two others held the edges of the paper, the rest surrounding as witnesses, arms around each other, someone documenting with a video camera. It was very, very moving.
I didn’t stay long; I had some errands to do and an appointment to make before leaving for the airport. I will come back in the spring, when more has been finished, when the weather is warmer, when the trees have filled out a bit, when One World Trade is further along. I could have spent a bit more time reflecting. These are definitely “reflecting” pools in both the visual and the mental senses.
However, one perhaps unintended reflection particularly caught my eye on this visit. Two buildings on the perimeter of the site were reflected in the water underneath the parapet, creating an uncanny reminder of the icons of what was lost here.





































